I have been so lucky to grow up in a very clean and descent society, where people have been dedicated following religion. It created a lot of opportunity and scope for me see and think why and how certain people behave. Since my early age I really want to learn about Quran and Islam. On the same time usually take time to think if that sounds reasonably correct and appeal human nature.
It was Ramadan 2001 ( almost 15yrs before), I was engineering final year student then, I was standing in last night prayers of Ramadan ( In Indian subcontinent they complete one turn of whole Quran). The imam was reciting last verses of Quran, I could not held my tears with the feeling that it’s over. It ws like Ramadan finished, people were already in markets for their Eid shopping. But I felt deep in my heart that I am going to miss it big.
As in Ramadan everything change for me, specially my schedules are so different from normal days. I prefer to sit in masjid a lot more time than I usually do in other days. Stay more in salah (prayers) and read more Quran and sit in almost all gatherings of religious studies, try learn as much as I can. It’s like you fell in love with someone and you think every second of it. Day time you fast and nights you stand in prayers. Almost all the time you remember its Ramadan and you love it so much.
Those last verses of Quran on that night of Ramadan transferred shocks waves into my nerves so hard that I could not resist my eyes. I felt its almost gone and I started to have a feeling of regret that I could benefit most out of it. I was about to finish my Engineering degree and missed my distinction just by 4 marks.
Everyone went back homes after prayers, I sat for three days there with only one thought. How can I avoid this regret in coming time. I sat down alone and revised all my activities during whole month and figured it out where and how I could have snatched more satisfaction.
Later after Eid prayers, I was still feeling bad and already missing Ramadan. I took this reflection and desire to not miss an opportunity to my education, later to job and blog. I decided to look into my mistakes during B.Tech and overcome them in coming days. I checked few big things that took my energy off (like traveling, friends, useless assignments, lab reports) and do them in free and leisure time or do it the way they deserve, so that I could spend more time learning things that are really useful for me.
Then a year after I started to have a schedule for Ramadan (written schedule), then wrote my PhD schedule (finished two months before the schedule), in Samsung have schedule for all projects and meet almost all deadlines.
Life is short and I really dont want to waste my time and miss out to the best performance. I try to skip everything that don’t improve or create issues in my productivity. Ramadan is a great learning time for me. I treat it as my whole life, as if I have only a month to live. I used to write a Hadith everyday for couple of years and share among friends. This year I will share my reflections with you all so that you do miss out what I missed during my young age.
You can read more on Ramadan at ini.
I pray Allah SWT to grant me courage and guide me and you all to live a successful life here and hereafter. Ameen
To end with I share my beloved prayer with you so that you can repeat it when you really want to ask something to god.
رَبَّنَا آتِنَا فِي الدُّنْيَا حَسَنَةً وَفِي الآخِرَةِ حَسَنَةً وَقِنَا عَذَابَ النَّارِ
Rabbana atina fid-dunya hasanatan wa fil ‘akhirati hasanatan waqina ‘adhaban-nar
Our Lord! Grant us good in this world and good in the hereafter, and protect us from the punishment of the fire. Quran [2:201]